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As of 4/1/08, ALL fiction on this journal is unlocked.

This means USE YOUR COMMON SENSE. Only click on and read stories you are legally allowed to access or feel comfortable reading. The headers clearly warn for rating, pairing and anything that may be major "squicks".

All characters depicted in my fiction in sexual situations are consenting adults.

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* To look at EVERYTHING I've written, go and look at the *Master List*, which is the post directly below this one. It has everything arranged by pairing and series. In *THIS POST* I talk about how to use it, although it's pretty self-explanatory.

* To find posts by more general parameters like fandom, ship, rating or mood, check out the right hand side of this journal and use the tags. You can also *CLICK HERE* to go to memories, which has the series and drabbles archived.

* A bit overwhelmed? Don't know where to start? Try reading THIS THREAD, where I talk about my stories. (This only covers my series, though, not my oneshots or drabbles.)

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Master List of Stories

Following is a list of my stories, roughly grouped by pairing.Most series on this list have at least one R or NC-17 rated chapter; most of the longer stories have multiple high rated chapters. When you click on a story, read the headers and the warnings, and decide whether or not to continue. If you don't read the headers, it's not my fault if you read something you don't like or are squicked by.

Stories marked by an asterisk (*) are those that I think you should read first in a 'verse, just so you can get the feel of the world or the grounding information you need before exploring the other stories set in the same place.

Chaptered stories that should be read in a set order are numbered, and arranged in tables. My drabbles from the 2008 Drabbles challenge are also in a table, but can be read in any order.

You might notice a few of the stories are on the list a couple of times; this is because they fit under more than one category.

If you notice any problems (link broken, link leading to the wrong story or chapter, a glaring typo, a fic I've left out, etc.) please leave a comment, and I'll fix it ASAP!

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Title: Lucky Pennies
Author: [personal profile] iamshadow
Fandom: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (TV), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Pairings: Gen, could be read as pre- or mild Clint/Phil and/or Clint/Natasha
Rating: G
Word Count: 6,191
Summary: In Clint Barton's official SHIELD file, there is a supplemental form with a string of letters and numbers indicating a superhuman ability. On it, there are two pieces of information. The first is 'Asset-Reported Ability (unverified)'. The second is 'Combat/Field Applicable Ability Y/N'. 'N' is circled.
Content: Canon Compliant, Alternate Universe - Magical Realism, #coulsonlives, Origins, Friendship, Gen Work, Gen or Pre-Slash, Trust, Trust Issues, Budapest, Pre-Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D., Pre-Series, Luck, Superpowers, Minor Injuries, Temporary Character Death, Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. Spoilers, Minor Violence, Hurt/Comfort, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Money, Psychic Abilities, Deaf Clint Barton, Deaf Character, Broken Bones, Strike Team Delta, Platonic Cuddling, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Cuddling & Snuggling
A/N: This started life as an AMAZING dream that I actually woke myself up from to take notes on so I could play with the idea when I was properly awake. Though the finished story doesn't much resemble the dream it came from, I'm really happy with what I came up with.

This story is listed as gen, and it IS gen, but the relationships in it are close and could be read as pre-slash or pre-het if you want to go that way. That's perfectly fine, that's why I tagged with both a / and a &. For those who like their gen without romance, be assured that there is none in this, just a deep co-dependant friendship and working relationship.

I have tagged for Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. spoilers for the super-cautious, but there is nothing really but some vague references to the climax of the pilot episode. As for time, the AoS era scene definitely takes place before the events of Eps 09/10 (The Bridge/The Magical Place), and probably around about or before Ep 06 (FZZT). For those not watching AoS, there is no required watching, and no AoS characters make an appearance.

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Title: you're the fireworks flyin' on the fourth of july
Author: [personal profile] iamshadow
Fandom: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Pairings: Bucky/Steve
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 2,758
Summary: Steve's got ninety-five years' worth of Bucky's birthdays to catch up on.
Content: Remix, Dom/sub, Light BDSM, Leather, Leather Kink, Leather gloves, Uniforms, Uniform Kink, Birthday Sex, Handcuffs, Butt Plugs, Wall Sex, Sexual Fantasy, Enthusiastic Consent, Somnophilia, Morning Sex, Obedience, Clothed Sex, Power Dynamics, Finger Sucking, Praise Kink, Dom Steve Rogers, Sub Bucky Barnes, Established Relationship, Begging, Desperation, Muffling, Breathplay, Coming Untouched, Blow Jobs, Consensual Kink, Scratching, Marking, Come Shot, Kissing, Laughter during Sex, Rough Sex, Barebacking
A/N: Written for avengers_remix for [archiveofourown.org profile] girl0nfire as a remix of her story you're my national anthem.

Well, it's been a long time since I wrote anything quite so porny, so I hope it's good, and that I hit at least some of your kinks.

Beta thanks to my other half.

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Title: Gossamer Thread
Author: [personal profile] iamshadow
Fandom: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (TV), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Pairings: Mostly Gen, Tony/Pepper, Clint/Phil
Rating: PG
Word Count: 3,569
Summary: A magical practical joke gives the Avengers some unwanted appendages. Over the course of the two weeks that follow, they go AWOL, lose personal boundaries, watch a lot of films, start a summer camp, and eat a very satisfying breakfast.
Content: Tentacles, Dubious Consentacles, No Tentacle Sex, Magic, Team, Team Bonding, Friendship, Food, Breakfast, Humor, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Platonic Cuddling, Cuddling & Snuggling, Movie Night, Established Relationship, Minor Injuries, Broken Bones, Hurt Clint Barton, Trope Subversion/Inversion, Fluff, Mostly Gen
A/N: Written as a back-up story for the 'dubious consentacles' challenge on marvelthrowdown. The story I used for that challenge was a creature made of salt and blood. This isn't in the same universe as that one, but think of it as a bit of a bonus fic that I wrote because it was my original story idea, and it wanted to be written, even though it wasn't necessary for the challenge.

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Title: a creature made of salt and blood
Author: [personal profile] iamshadow
Fandom: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Iron Man (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Pairings: Mostly Gen, Clint/Phil
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 4,906
Summary: It isn't until Clint fails to even crack a smile that Phil starts to worry.
Content: Tentacles, No Tentacle Sex, Dubious Consentacles, Non-Consensual Body Modification, Angst, Angst with a Happy Ending, Implied/Referenced Torture, Body Horror, Panic Attacks, Poisoning, Gen or Pre-Slash, Getting Together, Alcohol, Minor Violence, Hydra (Marvel), Pheels, Tony Stark Has A Heart, Fanboy Phil Coulson, Phil Coulson Needs a Hug, Not As Dark As The Tags Make It Sound, Mostly Gen, Pre-Slash, Post-Iron Man 3, Not Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. Compliant
A/N: Written for the Dubious Consentacles Challenge on marvelthrowdown, where it placed third. However, because my brain can't help but subvert tropes even when it's not required, this story doesn't contain any sexual content.

For those who need to know these things ahead of time, check out the end notes for the circumstances of the dubious consentacles. I have tried to inform about the actual events without being too spoilery. As always, it is you, the reader, making the choice to read. If the end notes describe something you will not be comfortable reading, the agency falls on you to hit the back button.

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Title: No Easy Way Down
Author: [personal profile] iamshadow
Fandom: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Iron Man (Movies), Captain America (Movies), Captain America - All Media Types, The Avengers (Marvel) - All Media Types, Captain America (Comics), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Rating: PG
Word Count: 8,900
Summary: “So, some rich white dude walks in yesterday, says he’s gonna make me a robot arm,” Bucky says scathingly. “What an asshole.
Content: Alternate Universe, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe - No Powers, Alternate Universe - Different First Meeting, Alternate Universe - Race Changes, Male Character of Color, Mentors, Disability, Physical Disability, Prosthesis, Hospitals, Permanent Injury, Injury Recovery, Education, Identity, Foster Care, Group Homes, Homelessness, Humor, Friendship, Cross-Generational Friendship, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Survivor Guilt, Penance - Freeform, Returning Home, Civilian Life, references to Battlestar, Gen Fic, Veterans, Amputation, Missing Limb, Trust Issues
A/N: This story owes a lot to the people who steered me straight and helped me avoid making dreadful unintentional errors regarding race and culture. Firstly, to musesfool, who pointed me at the wiki page for Battlestar, which allowed me to write my way out of the same problem Marvel ran into in the eighties, rather than having to scrap the whole story or, heaven forbid, posting it as it had been, unknowingly. Secondly, to whizzy and sandt250, who gently corrected and educated me on why some of my questions were culturally inappropriate. And lastly, to Foxy, beta extraordinaire, who read over the whole story and helped me tidy up the rest.

This story is a weird amalgam of AUs. It's non-powered, in a lot of ways, but not completely. Steve Rogers is a returned vet, and an extraordinary one, but he's not a super soldier. Tony Stark's story arc is very similar to the films through to mid IM2, but not the same - he's still kidnapped, still frees himself by building a suit, but he's not 'known' as Iron Man, if he even still is Iron Man in this 'verse. (I've left that ambiguous.) It's very much an AU for how certain characters meet, but I've taken some mild influence from early comics canon where James Barnes was a teenager, rather than Steve Rogers' age peer. I've taken closely from Battlestar's reimaging by Marvel to avoid perpetuating unintentional racism, but the character in question is an African-American James Barnes, not Lemar Hoskins. And while I have shifted the race of a character and written a lot about physical disability, this story isn't really primarily about either of those things, so much as it's about the walls we build around ourselves in the wake of trauma, how we hold ourselves back from healing, and how sometimes, the hardest thing isn't the obvious, physical thing, it's taking that mental/emotional step over the wall and learning to live again.

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Title: Say Uncle
Author: [personal profile] iamshadow
Fandom: The Avengers, Marvel Cinematic Universe
Pairings: Clint/Phil
Rating: PG
Word Count: 3,064
Summary: Phil is Feew and Unkafeew and, amusingly, Booie-wing, because those first few desperate days apparently made a lasting impression.
Clint is mostly No, with a healthy dose of toppit. Sam saves weo futter for special occasions, these days, and Clint would have thought he'd be used to it by now, but every time, it makes him want to go out and shoot something.
Content: Kidfic, domestic, family, parenthood, adoption, past child abuse, PTSD, hurt/comfort, sequel!fic, timestamp, gift!fic, tribute!fic, gen and slash, hurt!Clint, hurt!Phil, hurt!original child character (all minor).
A/N: Giftfic for [personal profile] florahart.
One of my favourite kidfics involving Clint and/or Phil is florahart's Unexpected Doesn't Mean Unwanted, and I always thought that if I wrote a kidfic for this fandom, I'd want it to be like hers. Then, when I sat down to write, I ended up writing a sequel to her fic instead. So, you'll have to read that first, but it's awesome, so you should anyway.

Many thanks to florahart for letting me play in her sandbox, with her OC.

EDIT: Also counting this as a soft fill for 'secret child' on my trope-bingo round one card, subversive because in florahart's original story, Sam isn't exactly secret, but Clint doesn't know about him until Barney dies, and by the time this fic takes place, everybody knows about Sam.

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Title: It Seems The Stranger's Always You
Author: [personal profile] iamshadow
Fandom: The Avengers, Marvel Cinematic Universe
Pairings: Steve/Tony
Rating: PG
Word Count: 2,175
Summary: Movie night, my turn, no excuses, no late comers, no pants, Tony mass-emails to everyone.
It's the first time in a month that they've all been in the one place, and since Natasha and Clint are both nursing benchable injuries, he can bank on them staying put for at least the next twelve hours.
He puts in a massive order for finger foods, and sits back and waits.
Content: Team bonding, hurt/comfort, first time, movie night, sequel!fic, cookie, timestamp, Hawkeye's Purple Miniskirt.
A/N: So I accidentally wrote a little sequel cookie fic to I Walked A Thousand Miles Just To Slip This Skin. This is the payoff for those who might have wished that Tony and Steve got together in that fic.

Those who haven't seen Hedwig and the Angry Inch might not get the deeper meaning in some of the things that are said, but you should still be able to follow it. And you should see Hedwig if you can, it's a lot of fun. I have the film adaptation on DVD, but I was also lucky enough to see it performed live as part of the 2006 Mardi Gras festival by iOTA, and it was amazing. I hear it's being revived in the US with Neil Patrick Harris playing Hedwig, and I'm certain he can do an awesome job of it, so those who can get to it should try and see it. It's an incredible experience.

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Title: One Hundred and Five Percent
Author: [personal profile] iamshadow
Fandom: Iron Man Movies, Marvel Cinematic Universe
Pairings: Tony/Pepper
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 2,175
Summary: “I need a shower,” Pepper says, gathering together a ragged semblance of her usual poise. “And...clothing, really, much more clothing, and don't even say it.”
“I didn't say anything. I wasn't going to-”
“I know you were because I heard... oh God. I can hear your thoughts,” Pepper says, sounding utterly dismayed.
Tony can't help the apologetic smile that slips onto his face. Hi, he thinks at her.
Content: Extremis, hurt/comfort, telepathy, sleepy sex, cunnilingus, bots, inspired by fan fiction.
A/N: Giftfic for [personal profile] copperbadge
This story started out life as a prompt for Sam to write while stoned, post-op. Then I wrote it myself, instead. Basically, I love Sam's Tony post-Extremis fic The Tongues of Men and Angels, and I wanted to see Pepper talking with the bots after she got Extremis. But in IM3, Tony doesn't get Extremis at all, so this story doesn't follow IM3 canon very hard, and it disregards a lot of what happens after the big showdown. However, I couldn't help riffing off scifigrl47's fantastic IM3 coda Far Better Things Ahead, so there are direct references to events in that fic, and an OC from that story is named and discussed. So you'll get more from this story if you've read both of those, but you should be able to follow it without.

Also, by pure coincidence, neatly fills a square on my Trope Bingo Round One card for telepathy/mind-meld, the subversive bit being that it's not actually telepathy, it's just the brain-to-brain version of instant messaging.

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