As of 4/1/08, ALL fiction on this journal is unlocked.
This means USE YOUR COMMON SENSE. Only click on and read stories you are legally allowed to access or feel comfortable reading. The headers clearly warn for rating, pairing and anything that may be major "squicks".
All characters depicted in my fiction in sexual situations are consenting adults.
* To look at EVERYTHING I've written, go and look at the *Master List*, which is the post directly below this one. It has everything arranged by pairing and series. In *THIS POST* I talk about how to use it, although it's pretty self-explanatory.
* To find posts by more general parameters like fandom, ship, rating or mood, check out the right hand side of this journal and use the tags. You can also *CLICK HERE* to go to memories, which has the series and drabbles archived.
* A bit overwhelmed? Don't know where to start? Try reading THIS THREAD, where I talk about my stories. (This only covers my series, though, not my oneshots or drabbles.)
Following is a list of my stories, roughly grouped by pairing.Most series on this list have at least one R or NC-17 rated chapter; most of the longer stories have multiple high rated chapters. When you click on a story, read the headers and the warnings, and decide whether or not to continue. If you don't read the headers, it's not my fault if you read something you don't like or are squicked by.
Stories marked by an asterisk (*) are those that I think you should read first in a 'verse, just so you can get the feel of the world or the grounding information you need before exploring the other stories set in the same place.
Chaptered stories that should be read in a set order are numbered, and arranged in tables. My drabbles from the 2008 Drabbles challenge are also in a table, but can be read in any order.
You might notice a few of the stories are on the list a couple of times; this is because they fit under more than one category.
If you notice any problems (link broken, link leading to the wrong story or chapter, a glaring typo, a fic I've left out, etc.) please leave a comment, and I'll fix it ASAP!
Title: I Walked A Thousand Miles Just To Slip This Skin Author:iamshadow Fandom: The Avengers, Marvel Cinematic Universe Pairings: Gen, Pre-slash Steve/Tony Rating: R Word Count: 18,679 Summary: He's become so used to being Iron Man and an Avenger, to battling Doombots and aliens and evil scientists trying to take over the world, that he'd forgotten that sometimes people want to do harm to you, personally, when you've just snuck out of the Tower to get mid-afternoon doughnuts. Content: Genderswap, gender dysphoria, body issues, self esteem issues, non-consensual drugging, references to rape, references to hate crime, references to transphobia, references to war crimes, trope subversion. A/N: Written for my Free Square of Round One of trope-bingo.
This story was partly born out of frustration at depictions of genderswap in fic as being cracky, sexy funtimes, or as a vehicle to slash. I wanted to write Tony struggling with gender dysphoria, with the journey his character takes being the prime focus, rather than a vehicle to a ship. So, this story has subtle hints of changing feelings, but that's not the point of it.
This is also the longest one shot I've ever written. \o/
Enormous thank yous to my gender betas, nathaniel_hp and kazaera, and my story betas, 51stcenturyfox and tree00faery. You're all awesome, and this story is a hundred times better because of you.
Title: just another coin to pay your way with Author:iamshadow Fandom: White Collar Pairings: Gen Rating: PG Word Count: 1,143 Summary: A cold case on Peter's desk reveals something about Neal's past that Peter hadn't suspected. Content:Sex work/prostitution (discussion of), awkward conversations, revelations, trope subversion. A/N:Written for the AU: hooker/porn/stripper square of Round One of trope_bingo.
This is set in a vague timeframe after S02 E11 Forging Bonds, but without any real hard links to the major music box/sub/treasure plot arcs.
Title: Coping Strategies Author:iamshadow Fandom: White Collar Pairings: Gen Rating: PG Word Count: 2,813 inc. footnotes Summary: Neal wondered if it was too early to crack open a bottle of wine, even though it was barely three. Then Mozzie reappeared looking white and shaken, and Neal had the corkscrew out without even consciously deciding one way or the other. Content: Friendship, drunken confessions, awkward conversations, trauma, dissociation, PTSD, not as dark as the tags make it sound. A/N: Just a short, unbetaed fic of somewhat unusual origins. kath_ballantyne did look over it to make sure it was coherent though, as she does for all of my fics, mostly without credit. Love you, sweetheart.
Title: Copycat Author:iamshadow Fandom: White Collar Pairings: Gen Rating: PG Word Count: 10,318 inc. footnotes Summary: Peter busts into a dingy apartment, expecting to find the artist behind a forgery racket. That's exactly what he finds, but the artist in question isn't anything like the sort of person he expected to find, and rather than having answers, he's got a far bigger mystery to solve. An AU where things are very different, but the important things are the same. Content: AU, kid!Neal, kid!Mozzie, child exploitation, mentions of child sexual assault and trafficking, A/N: This story started life as a fragment I wrote last year, just the first couple of scenes. I got as far as getting it betaed, and then promptly forgot it even existed. I rediscovered it in my Google Docs last week, and wham! 9,000+ word story.
The footnotes are long (hence them having to go in a post of their own) but full of information that might help the average reader understand references and issues that are only touched on in passing in the story itself. Trying to work them into the narrative would have been awkward and slowed things down, but I didn't want to leave those things hanging, as some of them are pretty obscure.
Many thanks, hugs, kisses and seasonal best wishes to tree00faery and copperbadge, who both put their hands up to beta for me, even though it's right in the middle of the stupid season.
Title: I've Pushed To Get Through Rating: PG Fandom: White Collar Summary: Neal's gift is everything he wished for, back when he was seven years old and dirt poor. It's also the reason he's alone; why people turn on him, why people want to use him, and why people leave him. Disclaimer: Not mine. Content: Hurt/comfort, AU, superpowers, pre-series, character origins, friendship, gen. Author's Note: I was rereading a bunch of White Collar fic the other week, and when I came across Five White Collar AUs Sam Didn't Write by copperbadge/sam_storyteller, I got grabbed so hard by the fourth one, The Comic Book Caper, that I had to expand on it. You don't have to read it to understand this, but you should. It's only a couple of hundred words, and it's the Peter angle, so you'll appreciate this better because of it.
Spoilers for Season One (with specific references to 1.01 Pilot and 1.07 Free Fall) and 2.11 Forging Bonds, but goes AU thereafter for Neal's backstory. Yes, I wrote something that is already jossed, but hey, they have superpowers, so it's an AU anyway.
The references that might sound vaguely familiar are to The Pink Panther. I still don't know how Jeff Eastin & co got through an entire episode about a pink diamond, cat burglars and framing someone else for the crime without a single crack about The Pink Panther.
Title: Parchment Rating: PG Summary: When Harry disappears, Ron does the only think he can think of. Disclaimer: Not mine. Content: Angst. Barely counts as slash - preslash? Best mates? You decide. Original Author's Note: Well, it's not UST, but I hope you like it anyway. Merry Christmas. :) Author's Note 28/05/12: Well, this is a blast from the past! Way back in late 2008 I participated in bestmates_xmas. This fic was a gift for my dear friend innibis, and somehow, when reveals went up, I never got around to reposting this story and the Yule Balls fic I wrote that year to this archive.
I rediscovered the Yule Balls fic almost a year ago. This one had slipped by me until today. And it won a Best Mates Award! I had no idea.
Enjoy it; I really enjoyed writing it, and rediscovering it again. It's not cracky porn, or even shippy, really. It's about loss, healing, and self-discovery in the weeks and months after the Battle of Hogwarts.
Any questions or comments welcome, by the way! I don't know how many Potter people still have this blog on their reading filters, but I actually do remember writing this, and I remember some of the ideas I had surrounding this story. For example, I remember Harry's side of things, which isn't said in the story; it's barely hinted at. But I will tell you, if there are any curious folk who want to know. :)